Not So Simple

Composed 1/28/17
Description: A theme I’ve been trying to capture the last couple of days. Given a boost by today’s daily prompt: automatic. Let me know what you think!

You and I have this syncopated dance
Back and forth both
Bold and uncertain and
Automatic
But the dance is a code that I cannot break

This would be easy if words were spoken
But we hide in intelligent quips and
Clever connotations
Our words circle and spin
Which makes my elation
Hesitant and foreboding

I try
And fail
To see through your eyes for
Truly mine are too shy

How I envy those whose hearts
Pour out through their lips without pause
All they have to do is say yes or no but
We dance around while I yearn for a single phrase

Isn’t this supposed to be
Simple?

Differences

Composed 1/24/17
Description: This is legit coffee-shop poetry, folks.  Inspired by life and today’s prompt: devastation.

I had never felt such devastation
Than when your interest was happily overtaken
When your eyes and your words were strangers

I had never felt such elevation
Than when you sought me out and
Cleared out a space for me

Simply
I am baffled by your chosen preoccupations
How one day is so unlike the next

The Unknowns

Composed 1/19/17
Description: Probably the symptom of an overworked brain.

To love the unknown is a scary thing
As it so much more easily consumes and bleeds
Your heart dry after you create and repeat
Fantasies that have no basis in reality
When essential details are unknown but
Interest is still peeked and cannot be shut down for
Perhaps the unknown is pleasing?
It’s the uncertainty that both unnerves and attracts
And I don’t know whether to flirt or fight back
I’m stuck and drowning in mystery and
Too shy to ask and learn what I need
For fear that my dreams will have been wasted
And crushed and fear that I’ve dived in too much
You see
I’d rather whisper conspiracies and
Overhear evidence that quietly denies
So I might suffer in silence with no one the wiser…
But will I run out of time before I learn actuality
And finally set my restless thoughts
Free?

Living the Dream

Composed 1/12/17
Description: As a soon-to-be-graduated graduate student, I spend a lot of time thinking about the future. It’s easy to get lost in the hum-drum of thinking about jobs and apartments and money.  But no matter what the future holds as far as all that goes, this is the best case scenario. For today’s Daily Prompt: Someday.

Sinking into warm cushions and
Opening my arms to you
Melting into the mindless hum of
Entertainment droning on and on as I
Distance myself from the day and
Admire the warmth of your skin and smile
Yearning for nothing

Fixation

Composed 1/11/17
Description: For a daily prompt that fit the evening nicely: cling.

I think about you so much
I forget the radio’s on
And when I hear it
I belt out every song

Time, distraction help me forget
For a moment

Then the race is on
Consuming my mind and my internet history
You stole all the keys and now you control me
With wit and laughter, eccentricities
And now I try too much and
Sit when I yearn to stand and leave

When there is no reason
No hope
No plans
Why do I bother?
Why do I contemplate and scheme?

Why is it that when my mind is tickled
It clings?

A Writer’s Prayer

Composed 1/4/17
Description: For me and (maybe) for you too.

Give me peace tonight
So the words may start
Give me peace tonight
To make a fresh start

Let calm descend like the fresh falling snow
So that all the worlds and realms may know
That an artist breathes within these bones
And that she lives and that she grows

Let the outside voices quiver and shake
And stop at the lips of those who hate
While the voice within speaks and flies
Beyond the heights and beyond time

Give me peace tonight
So the words may start
Give me peace tonight
To show the fire in my heart

Key

Composed 1/1/17
Description: I have thrown about many ideas for what I want to strive for this year to better improve myself. Some of these ideas are not very original but, I feel, necessary (i.e. eat better, exercise more, lose some pudge), while other goals are things to satisfy my more creative, artistic needs (i.e. experiment with bullet journaling). While some of these things may come true, I am perhaps the queen of halfhearted goals. However, a rare exception to that rule is this blog. While hiatuses are apparent, I have had this blog and kept it updated to some degree for over two years now. Thus, it seems appropriate to try and build on success, take another baby step, if you will. Do you think I can consistently post a poem a week for the whole year?

Inspired by life and today’s Daily Prompt: Year.

Resolutely
Each mind
Swiftly fills with varied aspirations that
Overflow and overwhelm as we
Long to start afresh and better ourselves with
Varied results depending upon
Endurance and earnestness