Composted 12/12/13
Description: n/a
It’s no new news
Long distance existence
An unfair heart tearing affair
Lasting less likely
As
Dreary days
Drag on
longing
The Flaw of Logic
Composed 11/16/13
Description: A short personal piece.
I can clearly see
The flaws in my logic but
It hurts anyway
Tactile Hallucinations
Composed 11/14/13
Description: I blame this title on the abnormal psychology quiz I’m studying for. Fun fact: these types of hallucinations are most common in situations of withdrawal.
I miss the things
That never were
The brush and touch
Of which I’m unsure
My fingertips
Untouched
Still burn
My heart, unbidden,
Won’t cease to yearn
My unfilled arms
And cold pale skin
Miss the solid
That was never him
His soft sweet pecks
That never pressed
I’ve tried to forget
But I’m obsessed
Unrequited
Composed 11/5/13
Description: Sorry for the long hiatus! School’s been killing me. But life has a way of smacking you with muse now and again.
I have accepted
The clouds that obscure
Any chance of sunlight
But I still bask in want
In the rays that pass through
Indeed I melt
Merely sensing your presence through the clouds
Long streams of warmth
Run and bubble under my fingertips
And the heat ebbs and flows
Across my neck and ear
How my knees tremble
At the smoky atmosphere that could be
If only I could stroke your face
Without getting burned
But I cannot help it
I still love
What is irrevocably refused
So Many Words
Composed 10/15/13
Description: Some thoughts I had while on my way to class this morning.
So many words I have to give
Locked up in my heart
Waiting to live
None toward whom these lines can be said
They catch in my throat
And rot until dead
Moot Point
Composed 8/18/13
Description: A short poem about my constant struggle nowadays.
It’s moot
I know, I know
But that doesn’t mean
I’ve stopped loving you
Don’t You?
Composed 8/18/13
Description: Inspired by an unexpected visit yesterday.
Don’t you want me to call you darling
And take your cares off at the door
And hang them on a rusty hook
As you rest your head on my shoulder
Don’t you want another’s ear
To whisper warm melodies
And fingers to press against the keys
When passion floods your heart
Don’t you want to wage war
Sharp tongue battles into the night
Feel the sting and thrill of anger’s slap
And turn our swords when intruders come
Don’t you want a companion
To make you laugh as you journey on
Six hours later falling
Pleased into home
I know you do
Then why do you leave
Alone
As I ask questions?
Skeleton
Composed 7/26/13
Description: We do not only need food to survive.
I could live without the feast
If permitted bits of bread
An occasional scrap of steaming meat
Small wrapped chocolates on holidays
At least then I’d have a taste
Of hope
But I sit here starving
Gulping water to fight the pains
To my left and right
They snack contently
Others gorging
Cheeks round and red with warmth
I’m
A skeleton
No one pays mind
To my stares
My pale, shrunken cheeks
Too distracted with their own joy
And I’m left alone to wither
All I Have Is a Flashlight
Composed: 7/9/13
Description: Just some thoughts.
I search for you in the night
In the land between here and fantasy
You’re the smoke and spark of my synapses
A battery
But there is no wood
Coarse, warm under my thumb
To ignite the stove
The jump and thump of my body’s pump
All I have is a flashlight
And a battery dies
Visions in the Night
Composed 6/16/13
Description: I’ve been feeling a bit lonely today.
the worst result of your sway
is
I admit
not your fault
but that does not mean
I cannot drown
in the steamy pressure of the night
that fogs my mind
with red
with darkness
and squeezes my body all over
then releasing
leaving my heart and soul empty
an emptiness that
lasts and lasts
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