A friend. A partner to walk with through this life. Someone to lean on, and someone to feel proud of and support. Someone sweet, someone who can make me laugh. Someone intelligent who I can talk and banter with. Love… felt and reciprocated. Loyalty… given and received with equal measure and eagerness. Someone whose company I do not tire of but seek. I’m looking for a partner.
A friend.
Composed 7/7/18
Composed 4/11/16
Description: Trying desperately to keep up with NaPoWriMo. I actually think I’m doing okay, considering I’m also somehow managing to balance work, final projects and papers, and a social life. Anyway, expect a few things to come your way today, including this piece for Day 9, roughly inspired by feelings from yesterday and scribbled down mere seconds before sleep.
It’s not loneliness
Simply the memory of
What it’s like to dress up and be admired
To look forward to those eyes and
The sweet messages they hold
It is something unique to feel
Whole in someone’s presence
Grasp a hand and feel like you’ve added another body and mind to you
It’s more than mind-reading
It’s knowing
It’s a heart beating and
A comfort feeling
Like home on Christmas morning
Not just love but a part of you
A history
Of banter, laughs, arguments, genuine compliments
It’s a life
A love I’m looking for
Composed 10/15/13
Description: Some thoughts I had while on my way to class this morning.
So many words I have to give
Locked up in my heart
Waiting to live
None toward whom these lines can be said
They catch in my throat
And rot until dead
Composed: 7/9/13
Description: Just some thoughts.
I search for you in the night
In the land between here and fantasy
You’re the smoke and spark of my synapses
A battery
But there is no wood
Coarse, warm under my thumb
To ignite the stove
The jump and thump of my body’s pump
All I have is a flashlight
And a battery dies
Composed 4/22/11
Description: One of my old favorites, probably because of its subject matter, which is still as relevant today as it was two years ago (and will undoubtedly remain relevant for awhile longer).
How do you know?
A look?
A smile?
Or is one only sure
After talking awhile?
Is it a physical chemistry?
Mental stimulation?
How he acts in
Various situations?
Is it a mathematical mix;
A list of compatible traits?
Simply liking the same things?
Enjoyable dates?
I’m starting to think
I’ll never know
Or maybe I just need
To develop, grow
Learn what I want
Or what I need
A man who can laugh
Who has goals to succeed
A man with intelligence
And humility
A passion for life
And eventually me
Honesty’s important
As is commitment and trust
But how will I know he has this,
Or even tell love from lust?
Can you ever know?
Or do we just guess?
Ah! Love!
It’s too much stress.
Composed 4/24/13
Description: My eternal frustration.
All I want
Is a devoted heart
To match an able brain
Passionate hugs
and kisses too
More topics than the rain
If I am
Philosophical
If I want some good ideas
He needs to be
Somewhat logical
To keep me safely sane
But if I feel
Alone and dreary
If I want his loving touch
He needs to express his love
Clearly
That’s not asking for much
I want
His mind
I crave
His heart
I need quality of each
This seems simple
But why does it
Prove so out of reach?
Scraps of Paper 